Abandoned, Scared, and Trembling by Sara Valin

Abandoned, scared, and trembling, I remember it as if it were yesterday. Another sunrise seemed only to bring more anxiety and worry. During my elementary and middle school years, I shared a home with my two biological parents. Similar to other children back then and now I lived with an alcoholic. From the time my father woke up, till he laid down at night, my father would be drinking alcohol. While I watched my father drown himself in the harmful substance, my mother took on all parenting responsibilities. Thankfully, my mom found her meaning in life and the maker of life when I was 6 years old, and we started going to a local church. In the midst of the danger, verbal abuse, and pain, my mother reminded me where peace comes from – Jesus. As my dad raged with anger, punched walls, and soaked in his tears of depression, I would pray under the covers in my room. My father was invited to my school and church performances, but would never attend. I was able to find rest at my church, and had found a family that not only stood by my mother and I, but also wanted to improve our lives. Before my biological father left in 2012, I was struggling. What was amazing though, was that God provided a constant peace and serenity in my life. I knew it was going to be okay because Jesus says in Hebrews 13:5 that, “and be content with such things as ye have: for he hath said, I will never leave thee, nor forsake thee.” I also realized that God gave me my perfectly imperfect life for a reason, and he was using my testimony to magnify his miraculous power. Most importantly, I was reminded that through it all, I will always have a dad. A dad that will lay down anything for me. A dad that will always claim me as his, no matter what I do. A dad that will set the example for me to follow. God is my dad, and I encourage you to believe this too, no matter the current relationship you may have with your earthly father. I’m not saying it’s going to be easy in life. In fact, there will be times of fear and desperation. Even after my parent’s divorced and my home life became more peaceful, doubts still ran through my mind. I recently had to watch my mom divorce my stepfather, due to unhealthy conditions. I am saying this because, no matter what your earthly father may be like, you will always have God as your father, your “dad”. When you let God hold you, he will be everything you have always wanted. You will realize that, you are not labeled “fatherless”, but a “Child of God”.
 
-Sara Valin
Sara was an intern and contributor to God is my Dad.  Click here to find out more about her.